It's been awhile...

Alot has happened since my last entry. Scott broke his arm Thanksgiving night. Mother issues. There was that crazy ice storm that knocked out my power (and running water) for 4.5 days. More snow storms to mess the roads up and make any kind of travel feel not only incredibly slow, but dangerous.

Now Christmas Eve is tomorrow... and I feel like I missed all of December. I started getting that excited holiday feeling when Thanksgiving rolled around... and then Scott's arm snapped and with it came double the workload at home for me, and my new job as in-home nurse. I love him and would do it again, don't get me wrong, but that extra stress on top of working 7 days straight and my crazy hours (6:30-3:30 one day, 11:30-8:30 another...) made the excitement of the season sort of take a backseat... and then become altogether non-existent with the storms and the traveling to Scott's parents house to get some water and heat. Lot's of traveling now... because he is back to work and can't drive. So I find myself on the road alot more than I was. Good thing I have a reliable car. She's been good. And the gas prices make everything feel alot less stressful. At least my wallet isn't feeling it as much as I am.

I love Christmas. I wish I could have enjoyed it more. I know part of it was me. I overdid it with presents and projects. But had things gone as planned it would have been ok I think. But when does anything goes as planned? I'm learning quickly that even if I plan something 4 months in advance, something could happen completely out of my control to mess it up. Hey, that's life, right? And there are plenty of people in the boat with me.

Speaking of Christmas, I made lots of cookies. I wrapped a TON of gifts and they look lovely under my little old fashioned Charlie Brown tree. I managed to fit in some time with friends and family. And now I feel like I can relax. Tomorrow is Christmas Eve and I have nothing to do but to enjoy the day. THAT feels good. I can sleep in and wake up knowing there is nothing to do but shower and spend way too much time making myself look nice. Ahhhh, feels good just thinking about it.

Merry Christmas everyone. :)

Just chillin' here watching TV and waitin' for my baby to get back from the gym. It's peaceful... relaxing in my little place. Things are pretty much going the same as they have been. Work, home, work, home, out, home, work.... I had a fun weekend in Boston but I definitely like being home in the middle-a-nowhere. I grew up in the country and I've grown to love it here. I'll probably never live in the city. I don't know just rambling I guess....

GOBAMA!

I'm watching history unfold before my eyes tonight! I've never been into politics, and I really never paid attention until this year. It's probably because 4 years ago I was 18 and living at home and not all that concerned or interested in any of this. I can't say that anymore - and it's exciting! It really is! I voted today and it was satisfying to say the least. I feel like I am a part of something and not just to be a part of it... but because I really care. I am excited for this term, I am hopeful and looking forward to seeing some changes, although I know they won't be overnight.
SO many people went to the polls today! There are so many people gathered tonight and engaged in this election - so much energy! It really is an exciting time and I am really happy to be a part of it. GOBAMA!!!

love, love, love, love....

So lately I have been flat broke. Still! But I am still not complaining. My brain is picking on me... making me think of how I could be where other people are if only I had ____. Well, soon I will get there. So far I have gotten everything I want. If I put my mind to something I will get it. It may take longer than I want it to but who said it's supposed to go according to MY plan? Now off to get pizza with my love, love, love, love........

mine was so easy to uncover...

It's fall. Officially.

I took Michaella out for a photo shoot (before our trip to the grocery store) and we had alot of fun (until the bugs ate us alive) There's more pics on myspace. I made a whole album. Check them out and let me know what you think, that is, if anyone even reads this.

tuesday

This is a picture I took of Ebbie...Dee and I took him mini-golfing and bowling. It was fun.

Tonight I am having a sleepover with Michaella and Scott. We are going to have dinner together, watch the Jonas Brothers movie, play Littlest Pet Shop Monopoly, and just have fun :) I'm looking forward to it.

Oh, yea, I love when my landlord knocks on the door and I'm wearing nothing but a skimpy nighty. Niiiiice.

the shadow proves the sunshine

I'm really hurting for money right now. I mean, I have a home and a car, but it's to the point now that I don't have money for the "fun stuff", and barely enough for a two week supply of food and gas. This is really hard.

I do realize that my situation is very miniscule compared to the situation of someone with a life threatening disease or someone who has lost their home to a natural disaster, etc. so I find that no matter how bad this feels right now, I need to be thankful because someone out there is very worse off than I am. It almost makes me feel silly. I mean, I know the gas and food thing is a real concern, but I know that if I spent it only on that I would be fine. Really, I could be. It wouldn't be fun, I'd be at home all the time and never really see my friends, but still, I'm not going to starve, and I have a little money in the bank. So really, I have no right to complain. There is a child sitting in some hospital bed right now dying. And her parents have ridiculous bills paying for her treatments while they try to hold onto some hope of a miracle that isn't going to come. And here I sit, upset because I don't have enough money to go to the movies. Seriously, what kind of person would I be if I really let myself get bent out of shape about this? This is crazy.
And on top of everything I have the most wonderful friends, supportive, loving boyfriend, and faithful family a girl could ask for! Not too mention a dose of maturity some people will never see... not to brag or anything. I just realize that if this was a few years ago this blog would have a very different tone. And for that maturity that causes me to really see reality as it is, I am very thankful.

I feel so much better now. :)

my old boss and a red jacket

It's so funny when random things happen... like when your old boss calls you out of the blue. So random.

Today is so beautiful, I'm so happy I have today off from work. It's so nice out... so peaceful in my little apartment. And later I get to take Ebbie out mini-golfing and bowling. What could be better?

Last night I saw Jen get her "red jacket" for Mary Kay. She was so cute standing up there twiddling her fingers and scooting the toes of her shoes on the rug. She was so happy... and I was genuinely happy for her. It's not something I know much about (just what I've heard) and it's not my cup of tea (maybe someday) but I really was happy for her. This is something she decided to do so she could stay home with her beautiful babies and now she is really blossoming and it's nice to see. I'm glad I was a part of that moment with her.

morning

So this pug is pretty much what I look like a the moment...all snuggled up peacefully...except I have a laptop in front of me...oh the magnetic pull of the internet.

Ahh.. so this is day 1 of 2 days off that I really need. It's not really that my job is hard, it's just involved, and there is alot of pressure trying to keep everyone happy. Not to mention when other people take advantage of you and just leave things they know will get taken care of, it makes things worse.

I'm wishing the sun was out today so I could take a drive and do a little picture-taking. Maybe this overcast light is better anyway. Definetly is. No shadows from the sun, no in your face beams of light. That's what I will do... take a drive and get some photography done. It's one of my favorite things to do and the best part is that it's free. For now anyway. If I ever wanted to make a career out of my favorite hobby it would definetly involve some green.

So, I woke up this morning and my mind started going off...started thinking about taking Ebbie mini golfing and bowling tomorrow and that made me think about how old he is...and then I thought about how old I am... and I quickly had to stop myself because I know how I am. I know how my brain starts and doesn't stop. And I remember that time of my life where I was alone alot and my mind would go off and it would bring me down. Thankfully, due to some changes and some awesome people I am much better off than I was before... and I want to keep it that way.

One of those awesome people is Scott. He is my biggest support system, my peaceful, simple spot in the world is with him. I think I feel more at ease with him than I do by myself. I can have a long, stressful day and come home to him and, not to sound cliche, everything just kinda melts away. It may sound silly but it's true. It's not that the stressful situations are all better, or the ridiculous people in my life are suddenly agreeable....it's just that I have a strong sense of peace when I am with him. When we are good, it's fantastic. I love my baby... I don't care how many of you cringe.

owls

I have been obsessed with owls lately. Ever since I bought my necklace with two little owls hanging from a gold chain. I don't know what it is, maybe the fact that they are super cute? Definetly. Dee is encouraging my addiction... I now have a pot holder in the shape of an owl thanks to her. Don't get me wrong I'm not complaining... the more the merrier.

So welcome to my blog... this is not going to carry on the tradition of livejournal or my myspace blog. This is going to be mainly random, and mostly positive (as much as possible!).

...g'nite.